bs writing

just writing to myself as usual. Depression is a bitch, never thought i would ever call the suicide hotline, but i did. That was probably the scariest thing i did in my life. Talking about my feelings and the thought of just ending it all racing through my head was not a good moment. Now i can tell you all i wont ever do it, , but it was true the thought did cross my mind. Also again one of my best friends is angry at me again. I dont blame him my personal demons is something i havent got past yet. Probably something ill live with for the rest of my life. I still one friend that sticks by me at least